Today I began my practice of daily study. For this to be a success I must study at a desk, take notes with a pen and paper, and spend at least 30 minutes at work.
At first there was resistance. The task in front of me is big and scary and I don’t want to face it. I was scared that I would fail and not understand the material. And I was also scared that I would not put the effort in.
After some time I realised that my fear and anxiety had reduced. I was doing the work. Just like I said I would be. I believed that my daily study practice was actually something that I will stick to. I will study today, and tomorrow, and the day after that. I believed in myself.
Establishing this “practice”, even for just a day, has made me feel better. I feel less anxious about the size of the task in front of me because I believe that I will chip away at it, one day at a time. It’s ok that I didn’t learn everything today, or that I didn’t complete all of the work, because I know I will be back again tomorrow. And the day after that.