Weigh-in #66: Sex, Gigs and Snowboarding

Peak: 435lb
Previous: 255.0lb
Current: 252.0lb
Loss this week: 3lb
Total Loss: 183lb

New low weight :). Last week was another tough one, I think I managed one run, a weights session and a bike ride. Food wasn’t tracked. I’m still feeling in a bit of a funk.

It was a pretty amazing week though, full of NSV. We had our office’s Christmas party on thursday night, which was a messy affair. Towards the end of the night we hit a club, which was perhaps only the 2nd time I’ve hit the dancefloor in anger since starting this journey. The difference between a 435lb guy trying to bust a move and a 250lb is pretty dramatic ;). I had a blast.

Friday was spent recovering from a hangover from hell. In the evening I headed over to Manchester to watch a Tim Minchin gig (best Christmas song ever). Anywhere where I’d have to be cramped into a seat used to be a huge issue for me. Theatres, lecture halls, cinemas, restaurants, trains, planes, buses were all sources of stress and for the most part I avoided them. It sounds like such a trivial thing, but to be able to sit in a seat and feel comfortable is something I will never take for granted again.

During the gig about 4 inches of snow dropped, so it was chaos afterwards. That made for some really spirited bar-hopping though, with adhoc snowball fights taking place in the streets. After one of these battles we retreated to warm up with some liquor and I spent the night partying with random group of people. One thing lead to another, and I ended up scoring with a gorgeous girl that is so out of my league now, let alone a year ago.

I haven’t yet blogged about my sex life, yet I think “looking better to the opposite sex” is a pretty huge source of motivation for anyone who wants to lose weight. It is for me at least. So here goes. At 435lb I didn’t have a sex life and I’ve been single for eons. Over the last year one of the things I’ve loosely been keeping a tab on is the interest women take in me, and thankfully that NSV has steadily been improving. It’s difficult to explain the changes, but it’s definitely not just a physical thing; the increase in my self-esteem has had a huge effect on my “game”. I’d argue that side of things has increased my attractiveness much more than the physical change, which is a fun bit of irony. I’m not going to blog about this much, but Friday night was a bunch of fun with a stranger in a hotel room. Yea! High-five!

On Saturday I had a whole day of snowboarding lessons on an indoor slope (“real snow”). This was an NSV at every turn. When I picked up my rental gear, the girl asked what size I wanted. Naturally I asked for the largest (XXL) which was met with a scrunched up face and “Whaaat? I don’t think so”. It’s these sort of unexpected, genuine, indirect compliments that are the best. I picked up a pair of XL pants which were too big on the waist, but the L were too small on the legs. Sweet! Next, I went snowboarding; I physically could not have done this a year ago. We spent 7hrs on the slope and I’m now a (really bad) snowboarder.

The next day I went into the ski shops to buy the gear I needed for the holiday. Dread descended over me as I looked at the tags of 36″ waists and XL being the biggest size. Even though I’d just been using “smaller clothes” the day before, I was still expecting that horrible feeling of not being able to fit into anything. I had a really cute sales assistant assigned to me which put the pressure on even more, “please fit, please fit, please fit”. The first pair of pants we tried… fitted. Whaaaaat?! The rest of the shopping trip pretty much went the same way, everything I went for fitted, including dropped down to a L for some bits. I got a bit excited and spent too much money, but so what! I can buy off the shelf, branded snowboard gear. I’m going snowboarding in 7 days. Awesome.

I’m not sure if I’m going to blog much before the new year, so Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. 2010 has been the best year of my life for so many reasons, thanks for sharing it with me. My mission now is to make 2011 kick it’s ass :).

Harry x

The new routine has failed

I stopped posting daily NR updates.
I’ve stopped accurately tracking my calories.
I’ve stopped trying to achieve 9 sessions/week.

I need to do some thinking and figure out why. Maybe I need to revise the goals a bit, or change some things to make it work better.

The failure is at the micro level though, the big picture is going fine: my times are going down and my endurance is going up. (Note – I just realised I’m now thinking about my progress in terms of athletic performance rather than weight loss. Neat!)

What’s The Greatest Thing You’ve Ever Done?

Question: what’s the greatest thing you’ve ever done?

I watched a standup comic use this question as a part of his act, to engage the audience and to base some improv on. Even though this was on TV, I felt a wave of dread come over me as I realised I had no idea what I’d say if he picked on me.

I want to be someone who feels comfortable answering that question.

Weigh-in #65: It’s so easy to slip

Peak: 435lb
Previous: 260.6lb
Current: 255lb
Gain this week: +0.6lb
Total Loss: 180lb

On the whole this was a good week despite a gain and only hitting 6/9 exercise sessions. My diet was going to plan until Thursday evening when I let loose a bit. It wasn’t a binge, but I knew I was eating more than I needed to. That teed me up for a couple of days of indulgence which blew any chance of seeing a loss this week. I had a couple of nights away, which meant eating out for all my meals, zero exercise and some boozing in the evenings. The worrying part was that I really enjoyed myself. I’ve reached the point where if I didn’t lose any more weight it wouldn’t be the end of the world, and that scares me a little. (There’s no doubt, I will keep on losing and hit my goals of 217lb, but for the first time I’ve seen an alternative that wouldn’t totally suck.)

My long run this week was awesome. I ran 13.1 miles on the treadmill (2:21:07). That put my weekly mileage at 26 miles which is another PB (perhaps too big a jump from 20 miles last week). I knew I’d be able to finish a half marathon in some form, even if it was walking the last few miles, but now I really know that I do have the distance in me; I’m 12 weeks out and I feel comfortable and relaxed about it. In the last 12 weeks I’ve dropped 25lb and gone from struggling to run 10km to (struggling to run) 21km; what can I do in the next 12 weeks?

NR Day 12+13

Whoops. Two days away quickly turned into two hedonistic days away. I’m back home now, safely away from temptation, but the scale says I’ve been a bad boy!

It’s 7pm and I’m ready to sleep for England. Wake me up sometime tomorrow afternoon please ;).

NR Day 10

Oops, forgot to post.

Woke: 8:00
Food: 2200 calories.
Exercise: weights2

This should have been a double gym day, so I’m playing catchup again. I’ve increased my hours at work, which means these double days are harder to do: I have to get up early (bleugh) if I want to make it in on time. Part of me says this is unrealistic in the long term; I’ve never been a morning person, so even if I manage getting up at 5am for a week or two, I’m already resigned to the fact I’m going to fail eventually. But is this just habitual conditioning? Why can’t I be an early riser? I wonder if there’s anything stopping me, probably not. I think I’m talking myself into some painful mornings next week!

NR Day 9

Woke: 8:00 (not enough sleep, again)
Food: 2250 calories.
Exercise: ski circuit, 5km+5km.

Cor blimey – good workouts! The ski circuit got me warm in the morning (it’s lots of stuff like press ups, lunges, step ups, jumps etc); then tonight I did two 5km runs, with a 5 minute break between them. I think the idea was to do them both individually for pace, so I set my speed at 10.5kph and broke last week’s 5km time (new pb: 28:40). I had my breather, then set off again at 10.5kph… which quickly dropped to 9.5kph. At some point I blew up and had to walk for a minute, before carrying on and finishing in 32:18.

I also figured out why my calories are higher :). During my runs I have a sports drink (+140) and after every evening workout, and every weights session, I have an extra protein shake (+140). Today was very good with the food, and it was still “high” because of those extras.

Time for dinner then sleep. Then weights when I wake up. Ugh.

NR Day 8

Woke: 8:00 (not enough sleep)
Food: 2250 calories.
Exercise: Swim, weights2.

Good session in the gym and tidy calories. Swimming was uneventful and I got told-off by my trainer for not doing a hard session. He’s got a point.

I’m really tired. And achey. And hungry. But it’s working, and it’s so, so worth it.